Effort

"God gives every bird its food, but he does not throw it into its nest." -J.G Holland

Today has been crap. I am trying to work but there are distractions and my mum's nagging which really doesn't help. Sometimes I actually question if I am trying hard enough and my answer is always yes i'm trying but I could try harder.

I've done a maths paper today but I didn't bring my maths books home so I can't revise and I lost my biology book and I have never lost a book ever, ever before. Grr I hate today. I haven't even done anything properly. Facebook is taking over my life! I might have to delete it because I am always on it! How come some people are able to have a perfect mix? Fun and work? I bet Ashwaryia didn't forget to take home her maths books.

I just wrote "she is so lucky" then had to delete it. It is not luck that makes her clever. She works hard so she deserves to do well. I still don't work hard enough. In fact I think i've started working less since I promised myself I would work more.

It's gonna be so hard to work when I hardly brought anything home. I'm going to have to use the internet and extra books. My mam bought me like CGP books so I guess I should really use them coz they are going to help in the long run even if they aren't necessarily helping me now.

The dogs have been really playing up too. Archie had his operation but keeps licking and making it all worse so we had to get a collar. Max has eaten even more chocolates so he is on a sugar high which really can't be good. Mummys out walking them now and I was gonna go but I have really got to work. Even though I'm not exactely working now...

I was really angry at mummy coz I did a paper and she marked it but I did really bad and she was saying nicely how I should look through the answers and see how to get the right ones but I shouted that I needed my maths books to do it. I could easily do it without!

I should really give her a break. She's got a lot on her mind- dogs, children, bills etc and i'm really just making it worse for her. She said she didn't want me on the walk because she needed some peace away from the house. I'm going to apologize when she gets home and cook tea for her and run her a nice bath tonight.

I really need to get out of the house! I feel like i've been stuck in here for weeks without being allowed out but its only been a few days. I went with Archie to the vets this morning but I think tomorow i'm going to go for some retail therepy (without any money) in bromley.

Anyone wanna join?